sometimes..

sometimes when you love someone you will do anything to please them even you will hurt... you will put yourself at the front to protect them.. you will make them happy even you will be sad...you will make them feel safe even you are not that strong...you will stay up late to accompany them even you are buzy...you will lie to them so they not worry...you will hide your pain so that they not know about it...you will not get mad even its to hurt...you will stay silent when you are hurt...btol ke?

lesson learn

now i learn so much thing in life..
first lesson is about love..sound silly yet it still a lesson.. no matter how strong ur feeling is never ever make it stronger than your brain...yes..it will affect you mentally.. never love someone with all your heart..keep a little to urself..believe me i had done and now i still paying it... never put ur hope to high..because the higher ur hope or dream the greater the impact you will feel when you fall to the hard ground of reality... never ever regret for the love...appreciate it every moment..cherish it when u still have it because once u lost u may got it back but it aint the same anymore...love someone who will love you back...never blame anyone for your failure..accept it with open heart...don't ever change for other just be urself..if someone who love you try to change u than it not u who he/she love...done typing...haha.. got to pay the love i had uae before again..haha...silly me..why can't i just move on..just why..she seem totally forget about me..she seem so happy now...why can't my heart be like her...move on and start to meet with other...why when i see other couple i see us together..why when i see ur text i feel being stabbeb...why when i see she happy with other my heart feel very empty...not that i hate to see u happy but i hate to see other man beside me who make u smile...i want to be that man..but i know i can't...i'm not good enough..when they ask me why i can't move on..they don't understand my feeling...even when i dream about marrying oneday the girl beside me still u...when i think of having a children someday their mother is still u..yes i know i cross the line but only in that dream i can see us together not in reality...i know u don't even bother to read anything i wrote here and u may also not remember anything about this thing..but this is the only place that i think i can throw all the word..i can't express to other...

dear someone

yeah..i miss you a lot..i never tired when talking about you..everything about you is interesting to me..even we rarely talk amd texting like before i always try to find a way to know about you..seem like stalker right?but i don't care at all..just call me whatever you want but still cannot let go the feeling that i had for you..you know girl your place in my heart is always be there if you ever thinking or cross in your mind that you wanna come back..i already reserve it with your name...that is your place that no one can replace...i know i may sound silly but you the first girl i ever totally fall in love...so it is true when people said that our first love is the one that we will always remember....you know girl..when my friend ask me why i just find other girl i just said i don't have to because i already had you..i know one day you will be mine...i still can wait for that day even that day is notsure whether can happen or not...they ask me why i waiting for someone who are not even think about me but they are just wrong..they don't know about us...

i know that i don't have the look,i'm too childish,annoying monster,stiff lover yang xreti nak pujuk gf sndri..i know yg i was too selfish also...i always make you angry with me but you still can accept me the way i am...tu yg wat owg rasa special..seriously owg taw owg neh klu nk dbandingkn dgn sape2 pon owg still kalah...bkn rendah diri tp realiti..haha